Tuesday, March 6, 2012

FASTEST FINGER FIRST


VISWANATH
12 pm, 10th april

 “Pak troops violate ceasefire twice; 1 jawan, 3 Pak soldiers killed”-That was a small write up on the first page of the paper and I am the Father of that jawan. My son mihir had died in a heavy exchange of fire in Keran sector in north Kashmir, 6 months ago. People come to my house to express their condolences and also to congratulate me for fathering such a brave son. I had always dreamt of the time when my son would make me proud but those dreams always had him alive in it.  Now that he is dead what do I do with these congratulations and condolences?

He was 18 when he said he wanted to be a soldier and no sir! I was not happy with it. He was a bright student. Why would he want to become a soldier??? I wanted him to become an engineer or a doctor or anything else but a soldier. It was his mother who forced me to sign the application form and now look at her.

There she was lying on the deewan, looking at her son’s pictures. Once her eyes used to make me forget everything…such beautiful eyes she had and now? There is nothing now in those eyes..Nothing! I keep gazing at her and suddenly I realize that my cheeks are wet…My daughter in law, Aakruthi gives me a kerchief to wipe them.

Aakruthi…I am scared to face her. I feel as if I have done her wrong by marrying her to my son. To be a widow at such a young age…People think she is very brave. Yes, she is…Definitely but I have seen her cry every night of these 6 months, clutching her daughter.
I am 60 years old and at this age it is difficult to take up family’s responsibility. I try but the money I get is not sufficient. I need to think about my granddaughter. In another year she will be in a school and fees now a day are so high! I tire myself by worrying about it every day. I switch on the TV and watch an ad of amitab bachchan and kaun banega crorepati.


RISHIKA
12 am, 10th april , 2011 

Jeez! It is scary to sit on the parapet wall and see hyderabad from the 34th floor of Vasanth vihar. I never realized Hyderabad was so beautiful. I wish I could stay for a little while more. But I don’t have much time. I  have so much to do and so less time.
I was 10 years old when I first saw him..Somehow a four letter word was never sufficient to tell how much I loved him..I waited for the right time…I imagined our lives together many a times. Avinash , a business tycoon and I, a scientist. Such a fool I was to think that time would wait for me. Wonder where he is now? Haven’t heard of him since 10 years.Should have listened to my mother saying, ‘Time and tide wait for none’.

My mother..She is all I have. My father had left us when I was 8 and so there were only 2 people in my life now…Her and avinash. I ll miss my mother a lot. I wish I had done something to make her proud of and I wish I had done something for him to remember me. But it’s ok may be I still have time. I look at the large hoarding of Amitab bachan on Kaun banega Crorepathi.

I remember how I used to curl up in her lap as soon as I was home from school. I used to wake up with her bhajans in the morning. The scent of agarbathi in the air…She still tries to maintain the same schedule..Waking me up in the morning, giving me my lunch box, kissing me goodbye..Tears roll down my eyes and I look at the report concluding I have intestinal cancer…I cry and I cry a lot but then I realize that I am not the first person to die and neither am I the last….
May be I can do something for her……

FAROOQ
10 am, 10th april, 2011

With one look at my house, I leave it to tend my field. My father used to tell me how important it was to stay as a farmer. He used to tell me that only two professions matter for a country- A soldier, to protect the people and a farmer to feed them.  I grew listening to Lal Bahadur Shastri’s slogans of Jai Jawan Jai Kisan but now, after seeing countless summers and winters I have realized that they were mere words to please people. After all slogans can’t fill my family’s stomach. I have lived to see my neighbors die of hunger, commuting suicides for not being able to pay the debts and I fear that my chance would soon be up. My ‘ghehoon’ crop isn’t fairing well. The gods are showing no mercy.

Later that afternoon I drag myself to shahukar’s place, hoping that he would lend me more money. Shahukarji is a nice man. I enter his abode to find him with his son, chote sahib. They were busy watching TV. Chote sahib was talking about some game where people can win money.

‘Baba?try tho karo na? Agar 6 sawalonn ka apne jawab dediya tho kam se kam 1,60,000 tho milenge!’Shaukaar took a sip from his hookah, “nai bitua..yeh sab kaika kasht? Bhagwaan ke kripa se sab kuch tho hai na?tho fir?’
“baba?phir bhi…

I kept listening to their conversation and I donno what came over me and I said”sahib?mai koshish karta hoon. Mujhe bataenge ki kya karna hai??’

KAUN BANEGA CROREPATHI STUDIO
17th November, 2011     

It’s the last day of KBC season 5 and only three contestants remain. The last contestant had won 80,000 and he had hugged amitab bacchan before leaving the set.

Amitab bachchan had come to the center of the set and the camera zoomed on his face
Panch koti mahamani kaun banega crorepathi ke Ahkri episode mai aap sab logon ka phir se swagath hai. In  paanch mahino mai KBC ne bahut saare logoon ki zindagiyan badal di. Haan!Agar is dauraan agar humne kisi ka dil dukhaya ho tho mai apne KBC team ke taraf se aapse kshama mangtha hoon. Humara uddesh kisi ka dil dukhana nahi tha.Isike saath hum apne agle aur shayad aakhri fastest finger first ke oar badhthe hai..Swagath kartha hoon humare aakri bache 3 contestants’ ka. Talliyan bajaiye..
Farooq sheik, Jaitsar, Rajasthan se!
Rishika Gupta, Hyderabad se!
Aur
Vishwanath aiyar, pune se!
Ready contestants? Aur aapka fastest finger first hai yeh aapke screen par!!!
Put these words of a Hindi Proverb in the correct order
A. Bimaar B. Anaar C. Ek D. Sau

Aur aapka samai shuru hota hai ab!

EPILOGUE

There is 1 hot seat and 3 contestants. People whose life may depend on this one question. These are Indians who are in need of money equally but only 1 can sit on the hot seat. And readers it is for you to decide who should sit on the hot seat..Whose need according to you surpasses the remaining two???
‘Kehthe hain ke agar ek darwaaza band hojae tho doosra apne aap hi khultha hai.’-a line we get to hear almost every day in our life but which of these 3 has only 1 door??Decide and tell me why???

For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction so let your actions be pure



During my last days of schooling i gave my slam book to my teachers...nearly 40 teachers wrote different quotations but only 1 among them had great influence on me....I read it every day...it was my physics teacher who wrote "For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction so let your actions be pure." More than half of it might be Newton’s third law but it has great meaning in it.

If u hurt someone (intentionally or  unintentionally),the equal amount will be inflicted upon you someday or the other in some way or the other...If u hate anyone, someone would hate you equally...If u love anyone intensely, someone would love you in the same way...If u have helped someone at the time of need then someone would help you when you need it the most.... 

I know none of u'll reading this would hurt anyone intentionally or hate anyone and i also know that half of the people reading this love someone and they believe that, that person would never love you back in the same way..It is for those people that i write today..;-) Guys, its k if that person doesn't realize how much you love him/her now...Someday he would realize it but till then love that person with every drop of your blood, with every breath you take,let that person know how much you love him with every action of yours...some day you would definitely get an opposite reaction...:) just wait for that day....never give up hope till then....:) And if someone has hurt you in some way just forgive them...I know maybe at that time you would desperately want to kick his ass or swear but don't....just forgive...c how light your heart feels..initially it might be difficult but at least you could give it a try.....just remember that some day he would realize his mistake because his action were not pure...some day he would learn his lesson....love and mercy are the two most difficult things to possess...Two purest forms of action... And if you posses them then there is no end to your happiness....  Trust me...:)



Miss u a lot.....


Sometimes you realise the importance of a person wen he/she is gone and would never come back...the surprising fact is that we live in a delusional life,failing to realise the importance of a person....today i realised something and i want to share this wid as many people possible....please spend as much time possible wid ur loved ones...cos smeday u will regret the time wen u had a chance but still couldnt spend time wid them....

If there would be 1 thng i culd change in my life...i would want my grandpa back...Today, i would like to write about him....and wat he meant to me....Late Sri Rallabandi Venkata Vithala Lakshmi Narasimha rao...quite a big name...isn't it? I was 6 wen i met him for the 1st time and 10 wen i saw him last....he is no more...but those 4 years he was my friend,playmate and more....i miss him a lot...i miss his stories,i miss playing chess and carooms wid him...i miss the time we used to share choclates behind my parents back...i miss the time wen i used to fight with him for 101 silly reasons....i miss playing video games wid him....i miss him scolding me for getting 3/10 in math....lol..i miss him encouraging me to read books...half of the books in my library are his gifts...i miss him teaching me telugu words and numbers (forcebly) but now i would give anything i have just to get him teach me those lessons now....i miss sitting behind his scooter while he got me from school....back then i hated that scooter but now it would mean a lot to me..his things are nothing less then antiques to me...i preserved most of them in my diary....a reminiscent of the old days...my priced processions..we used to have dinner together but now his seat is empty and cold...i want him back and I miss him a lot....And no matter what i do i would never get him back....If my grandpa can c me now,i want to tell him, "I love you tathayya......"

To those of u who still have ur grandparents please understand that u guys are very lucky...spend as much as time with them...try and make them as happy as possible....

The same goes to all our loved one's.be it family or friends....respect every one and hate no one....life is very short and lets make room for all our loved one's....:)

Together Yet Apart

© Kyra Lee 
Its got harder and harder
since the day you went away
but still people keep telling me
everything shall be okay

I know deep inside
that it’s better up there
but we're not together
which makes it unfair

Seems like yesterday
that we were together
then I opened my eyes
to realize gone means forever

It hurts and it aches
its slicing my heart
for the rest of my life
we shall be apart

I’m waiting for the future
hoping to see
that when I die
You'll open up those gates for me

Having a Poppy
with a heart made of gold
is my favorite treasure
which will never grow old

Family reunions
will never be the same
cause you’re not there with us
to be stronger I aim

Your chair at the table
is empty and cold
you need to come home
I need someone to hold

Now that your gone
I have no-one to run to
Am I doing this right
please send me a clue

I don’t understand
the meaning of life
I can’t get this right
Keep getting in strife

Do you Know
How much we all love you
Do you realize
How much I trust You

Your Officially gone
But forever in my heart
You and me Poppy
together, yet apart

MEMORIES-a diary in the head....:)


MEMORY....It is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose...it is what makes u...I think it is brilliant how some of these memories makes us smile wen we are really sad and the rest make us sad wen we really want to be happy...i guess thats the power of a memory...its like reliving that moment....like carying a crazy diary in ur head...hehe...all of us remember those times when we spent with our frnds....those times wen ur 5th or 6th class teacher slapped u bcos u din write ur homewrk....haha...wen u were nervous to propose ur 1st crush...when u told lies to ur parents just to go and watch a movie with ur friends....or it could be the memory of a deceased loved one....so what if some of them bring us pain?so what if that pain is like a blade slicing inside?still...u dont have to let go....i never understood why some people ask us to forgot those  memories which gve us pain....i never found any sense in it...honestly what good would it do?i believe it is not the memory that gives us that pain...it is our perception...Instead i feel we shuld try and make those memories usefull to live our present(usko yaad ese rakhiye ke jeene ke kaam asake...)...carry those memories but dont let them spoil ur present....make new memories...start fresh and add those pages to ur portable diary...make it rich and worth reliving....:).....dont walk away from those memories...dnt try to forget them...u will only fail...instead put that energy in making some new memories.....u will heal quick....dont let go is what i suggest....instead make every moment,every day of ur life worth a memory....:)



Memories

(Grace E. Easley)
Memories are heartbeats
Sounding through the years
Echoes never fading
Of our smiles and our tears.
Moments that are captured
Sometimes unaware
Pictured in an album
Or a lock of hair.
Images that linger
Deep within the mind
Bit of verse we cherished
Once upon a time.
Through the musty hallways
Of the days we knew
Ever comes the vision
Beautiful and true.
Memories are roses
Blooming evermore
Full of fragrant sweetness
Never known before.
Life must have a meaning
Goals for which to strive
Memories are lights that burn
To keep the heart alive.